A few weeks
ago I experienced something shocking and afterwards I realized that it has been
a new awareness and a new beginning. I wanted to share this.
The
previous day I had noticed that I heard the voice of My God less well, just as
if It was talking to me far behind. Of course I worried about it and said to
God "is there something wrong, I hear you less well, just as if a heavy
curtain is hanging between You and me?"
"Do
not worry" I was told, well then I really know. I always presume I do not
have a good insight once again or I am afraid of something or I do not see it
clearly, about all these things I stayed really worried. The next morning I
woke up at 4 am and said something to God and heard nothing. Total silence,
deafening silence, whatever I said or asked. I did not hear anything at all. I
was a little shocked and of course I felt blown away: "I have to stop the
blogs or have I done something wrong, did I insult God, or should I have done
something or did I have to let rest something?" But I checked my
conscience and found myself innocent, nothing had passed the past few weeks by
which I could have lost God.
But I still
did not hear anything at all. And one sensation was very strong, namely how
intense silent my inner self was, completely silent, almost pleasant. But the
pleasant thing about it was that I had the convincing evidence for myself that
it was not me who was talking to me all those years. Or that is was all about
my inner voice, or the voice of my conscience. Or that there had been all those
years the case of an inner dialogue and that I had just invented everything.
For how
utterly I did my best, whatever I asked, shouted, said, suggested, there was
always that deafening silence, I heard nothing and suddenly felt so happy, that
I now really had the convincing evidence that I had all these past 6 ½ years
not anything made up. Deafening silence, whatever I tried, everything was
one-way traffic and nothing came from the other side. Well, of course I was
worried. And it also felt very lonely. Very lonely, all of a sudden.
About five
very long hours later, I think it was around 9 o'clock in the morning, on my
renewed attempt "My God, are you there?" I heard
Rest assured, My son, I am here.
Be blessed for your attitude these hours, you
have successfully passed this test. You have remained calm, you have not blamed
yourself. You have considered all the options how to proceed without My Voice
and have accepted all options. You were confident, told Me "Your will will
be done," and that is the only response on the for you highest spiritual
level, so you have passed this test.
And know, My son, with all the spiritual
efforts you have been doing lately, and I will not go further into this, a new
phase is coming into Our cooperation. Stand firm in your efforts, be
courageous, be confident and be blessed.
My blessings to you all
Ps Frenkie: Since then I hear My God better, and
things have been said to me so I have even a greater confidence
that I no longer must doubt, that I should just continue with the blogs, and
that I can feel reassured.
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