My spiritual life

It's nice to talk about it, not because it's necessary, because that spiritual life does lead its (her?) life, but it's nice to think about such things, to put things in perspective, to ask yourself, what is the situation, as far as that works this is my attempt.

I strived for enlightingment for a while, but soon found out that it was just a word, which everyone interpreted differently and I thought sometimes the word was abused. It never really appealed to me, simply because I was still too attached to my personal life, my feelings, my way of thinking, my body. And because of that, an overwhelming realization and a considerable peace came over me. Maybe it's not for me, maybe I don't want it, maybe it's just a word that everyone misuses. And because of this, there was room for a beautiful spiritual experience that I have cherished very much ever since, and experienced again and again: I love this life, I love my body, I love the personal, I love the variation in feelings, the variety, the contrasts, I love that life is surprising and not boring at all. I don't want to get rid of it at all, I'm in the middle of it and it satisfies me very much, even though I know there's more. And I find it exceptionally nice to be completely immersed in it, regardless of the consequences. And that doesn't mean that I don't just walk with my head in the clouds, but also with my feet in the mud. Everything is part of it. Yet what I am describing now has been a long struggle of many years before I could say yes to everything, and I am still sometimes shocked by the intensity, especially of negative experiences and emotions. But still: I do that as much as possible, saying yes to everything.

Another important insight occurred to me concerning matter, the earth, the physical. Many religions are rather negative and judgmental about the body, let alone sex. Many New Agers are very contemptuous of matter and money as if they were inferior to the mind. But how I have always loved the material: beautiful things, a painting, a plant, a candle, sunlight through a stained glass window, and so on. The wonderful, constant, fine, reliable matter that is always there for you, no matter how you feel. The matter quietly continues to be there. Delicious, and actually money is part of that, handy, easy, why would money be dirty, something like that.

And then God. All my life I have sought to be closer to God, and I have often been mistaken about methods, movements, gurus or books. But I can also say: I dived into it, took out what seemed right to me and moved on. In that process, I never doubted God, at most Its servants on earth. The good God, I have always been able to feel Its presence in crucially beautiful and crucially difficult moments, and for the past twelve years or so I am hearing Its voice. I don't search anymore, I don't have to read about other people's insights and don’t have to follow gurus on YouTube. It is all right, but not for me. I've found it.

And that doesn't mean I know what it's like, but I've come home to Myself. I feel seen, affirmed, loved, reassured, and from that contact I have learned, I should say unlearned, to judge. No more judgment, but understanding, no more separation from others but the experience of respect and acceptance of the great variety of people, opinions, experiences. Total acceptance and peace in this, the other person is allowed to be how he is, and I am allowed to be how I am and if someone else judges that, I know that they have a problem, not me. If I judge, I have a problem and not the other. Peace and space and trust. And in that also more love than before for myself, for the other, for life, for difficulties, for the negative side, in short, peace and saying yes in this too.

And in all this and in everything I experience, I don't compare myself with others, because I don't know exactly how it is, and I don't look into someone else's heart, his inner self, his mysteries, but I only compare myself with myself before. More peace, more space, more love, more acceptance, more God and God closer, namely just in my inner self and the most most most beautiful thing is that when I am loving towards life, towards the other, towards myself, I also feel more close to God.

Do You want to comment on this?

This  will do.

My blessings to you all

No 563

You serve God as well by serving man (Ramakrishna)

I had been very busy for a couple of weeks and I felt that I was not very concerned about God and praying and meditating. At a certain point I said to God: "I have neglected you very much lately."
And then I heard:

My son, you have not neglected Me. You are now in a period that you are dealing with Me through men. All your work, all your energy, all your attention paid to your work, to the people around you, you spend it on Me and I see that. And you have done a lot for Me, My son, lately, do feel reassured.

And afterwards my feeling of default was completely gone. I felt so blessed and so calm and treated with a great love. Oh, how I would grant everyone that peace, that trust, that closeness to God. Everyone has the love of God, I now know that. But also feeling it, really feeling it and feeling loved and accepted by a nearby God who does not judge but cherishes, who does not separate but binds, who is not far away but as near as your own body.

Thank You, My God, Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.

Be blessed, my son.

 
My blessings to you all

No 471

Contact God, not Its servants

When you knock, ask to see God - none of the servants. ~ Henry David Thoreau

My God, would You like to comment on this quote?

My son, I would love to.

Again you have chosen one of My favorite subjects.
The love of God for God's servants on earth is large. The love of the spiritual world for God's servants on earth is large, and as well God's respect and understanding and support for them. Very large.
Let this be said.
Still, let man realize that the servants of God do have only one mission on earth and that is: to bring man closer to God, just that.
To bring man closer to God.
And in terms of human consciousness and the new spirit of the age they do not yet act good enough. They are still acting too much according to the old spirit of the age.

First just to be clear the new spirit of the age: God wants nothing else to be between God and man than proximity. Nothing else but emptiness. Nothing else but a direct relationship between God and man. Nothing else but direct contact.

Can it be defined more clearly than in this way?
Only God and man, only God and man.

And now the old spirit of the age.

Is it all about saints or about their love for God?
Is it all about the Qur’an or about the reference in the Qur'an to Allah?
Is it about the silence of Zen meditation or What arises over there in that silence?
Is it about prayer or to Whom prayer is referring to?
Is it about a particular belief  or about to Whom that belief is referring to?
Is it about a particular book or to Whom this book is referring to?
And now the punch line: is it about the servant of God or is it about Whom he is serving?

In the old spirit of the age, there is much discussion and confusion and even war.

In the new spirit of the age, there will be no debate and confusion and war, but freedom and space and inspiration.
Mankind will not directly focus on the servants of God, but on God Itself. And that is better and easier and more useful and certainly more efficient because it is bringing in more.
And thus this is meant to be, because God is closer to man and God can reach man more directly when man is addressing directly  to God instead of letting the servants do all the stuff.
Meanwhile, the servants of God are blessed.
 
My blessings to you all

Nr. 323

Do I want God to come more close to me?

Why is it You are investing in me in this way?

Because of our cooperation and dialogue I learn to know more intensely the mechanisms of the human condition.
God wants to come more close to man.
My question to you is: “do you want to come more close to God”?

I do not even dare to say yes, when I realize others are reading this. They will think a lot, on their behalf. Isn’t it pride thinking to come more close to You?
But if it’s possible, and You are asking it: I should say, yes please!

It does not take place in one single day. We have all the time in the world. So we go on and faster on the road together. And you will, as you become more experienced, be able to share more inspiration with others.
Be blessed.

My blessings to you all

Nr. 33