A while ago I lost a very good old friend, who had had a difficult life (and I heard that later on, she was found dead in her house only after nine days).
Between the
day I learned of her death and the mourning ceremony, one evening I was crying
terribly about her life. I wept about her loneliness, her suffering, her
illness, I wept bitter tears about her life, not really out of my grief, but about
her suffering. In that weeping, I asked the good God for a sign of life from
the spiritual world so that I would know if her misery was perhaps over and she
had moved on to a better life.
A day later
I sat in my living room with music and candles and incense quietly enjoying the
silence and peace in my inner self. I really didn't even think about my friend,
maybe I had wept enough tears. I didn't think about her. I enjoyed my own life
and my inner peace.
And
suddenly I was brought into contact with such a holy feeling that I turned off
the music. I knew it had to do with my friend, I was connected to the
atmosphere in which she had ended up and felt how liberated and happy she was
and how everything everything everything about her life was forgotten and
forgiven, as cigarette smoke blows away in a strong wind. She was liberated,
intensely grateful and terribly happy and she had a totally healthy
"body."
I was so
thankful being able to experience this, and I was in awe of the sanctity of the
atmosphere with which I had been brought into contact and knew that it was
justified because my friend had also had a pure personality and a great,
forgiving and loving heart.
And I said
to God, thank you thank you thank you for allowing me to experience this. I am
now reconciled to everything and I am no longer worrying about her.
And I
heard:
"Your tears have paid the price for this
contact."
And I was
so surprised because I hadn't made the connection between my compassion for her
suffering and this experience. I thanked God, and knew how good God is for us.
My son, everything is connected with
everything, you have now experienced that again. You all would be so surprised
if you saw in what great and godwilled context you are living. You would
certainly feel more reassured.
My blessings to you all
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